Happy List

Oh today... You know those days where it is disappointment after disappointment? That's today. so many things have fallen through or are on the brink of falling through. It's really putting a damper in my day.

So I'm going to make a list of things that make me happy because lists make me happy.

Here's to Happiness

1. The smell warm rainy days.

2. Happy Hour at Sonic. Strawberry Limeade, mmhmm. 

3. Live music - any of it, orchestras, Ingrid concerts, I love it all. 

4. Writing and receiving handwritten letters. It's a lost art. 

5. Discovering new music. 

6. Camping! I can't wait for summer!!!!

7. Long drives into Logan Canyon. 

8. Traveling. 

9. Naps. I forgot how much I loved them

10. That feeling you get when you're reading a really great book for the 2nd time and the characters are like long lost friends. 

I feel better now.

Little letters

To the Utah Jazz: PLAYOFFS!

To the lovely townhome I will live in this fall: I can't wait to see what adventures you have in store.

To my little green car: Happy Birthday! You are 10 years old and still getting 40-45 miles to the gallon. You are indeed my pride and joy. 

To my hair: this love/hate relationship has gone on long enough... how about you just grow and we will love each other forever? kthx. 

To my schedule: after next week, I am done being your slave for a while. 

To the boy who studied with me at the library: you brought me M&Ms. You made my night. 

To Sara, Adele, and Ingrid: not that you aren't already on constant repeat on my iTunes, but I have a feeling that I might need you more than ever this summer. Thanks for using my life as inspiration for the songs you write. It's a little weird, but I'm flattered.

 

To Sara and Jon: I love you separately (esp. you Sara), but together you are magic. And this video slays my heart a little bit. 

Come What May

I need to be a lot better at doing this.

   Sometimes I feel like I am on the brink of a really defining experience that's about to happen in my life. I feel like that now. That's not the first time that has happened and the things that had followed rocked my world. 

  So I've been having this feeling lately. And I am excited. And I am really, REALLY scared.

   The story of my life is happening and I need to let it happen and not freak out when good things come my way just because I'm afraid. 

I need to remember that faith and trust are the same thing.

I need to remember the one who I have put my faith and trust in because remembering this allows me to go forward with a lot less fear in my heart.

... crazy times ahead. Guaranteed. 

I'm really good at dreaming.

If you know me well, you know that I am a very vivid dreamer. 

Last night I had a dream that I married Leonardo Dicaprio. 

My fantasies from when I was between the ages of 9-14 have come back to haunt me (I was legit CRAZY about Leo for a time in my life... I'm only slightly ashamed, but not really). And for one night I don't think I minded. But I did wake up laughing because of the ridiculousness. 

Of course the Leo in my dreams looked like the one on the left. I loved that mushroom haircut. 

Mmhmm, yes please.

The Cure for an Achey Heart

It's been a funny week. My heart is achey and there have been a lot of ups and downs. Last night I went down to Salt Lake and saw my girl Ingrid Michaelson sing it up. Definitely one of the top 3 best concerts I've ever been to. I think she is better live than on her recordings, so she has earned some brownie points and a special place in this girls achey heart. And that heart was a lot less achey last night for sure, in fact it was the best medicine for it. So thank you Ingrid for a really awesome time and for giving this girl something else to feel for a while. 

 

Sacrifice Brings Forth the Blessings of Heaven

... that has been the phrase that has been running through my head tonight. Making sacrifices can be hard. Sacrifice is the opposite of selfishness. I try not to be a selfish person. But I find as I get older that I am selfish in different ways than my teenage self was. I have let go of the petty high school selfishness that comes with the territory of being at that age, but with that comes different things to be greedy about. If you're not careful, the things you are selfish about when you're older can be more self-destructive.

   So I think I'm coming to understand the importance of sacrifice more and more. I've had to make a few sacrifices lately. Some have definitely been harder than others and if it has been for people I love then I am happy to do it and it leads to a greater desire to make those kinds of decisions. I'm not saying we have to be martyrs and give up all the things we've ever desired. It's been a learning experience for me that when we choose to make sacrifices that we've been asked to make we are blessed ten-fold in other ways. Exercising our agency to make sacrifices and then doing so out of love makes the difference.

    Making a sacrifice out of obedience is a gift, making a sacrifice out of love is power.